Maybe this is out of place and should not be posted here but, I am broken hearted and don't know how to pull myself together. This past week, I lost my soul mate Mary Kay who was my wife, my lover and my bestest friend. After 47 years she is no longer by my side. There will be no smoking or saugage making in the near future. I just don't have the heart to do anything right now. If you can, please send a prayer to the GOD of your choice for Mary Kay and I.
If this is indeed out of place feel free to remove it
Nathan aka Sherlock
Nathan, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. You definitely have my prayers.
Dick
Nathan
Our deepest sympathy in your loss. We will be adding you and Mary Kay in our prayers. Hang in there my friend, you have a big family here for support.
Rick
AKA nepas
Nathan,
My deepest sympathy is with you. Prayers are with you to help you with your loss. God Bless.
Nathan,
My heartfelt sympathies to you and your family. I know the days may seem dark right now, but there is sunshine on the other side of the clouds. There always is. May God comfort you in your time of need and should you need anything, don't hesitate to ask.
Marc
Quote from: NePaSmoKer on February 16, 2009, 07:34:13 AM
Nathan
Our deepest sympathy in your loss. We will be adding you and Mary Kay in our prayers. Hang in there my friend, you have a big family here for support.
Rick
AKA nepas
Nathan
I can't say much more than Rick already has but I know both you and Mary Kay know that everybody here will have both of you in our hearts and prayers.
I'm truly sorry to here this Nathan. Life deals out some pretty big blows every once in a while and when it does... you really have to lean on your friends & family for support and you & Mary Kay know you have all the support from your extended family here on the forum.
Mike
The rest have said it better than I can even think of saying it, but know that my thoughts and prayers are with you in this time of sorrow.
Nathan,
My heartfelt thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family, take good care.
Paul
Nathan
Our deepest sympathy in your loss from all the staff at Bradley Smokers
It is times like this that as Mike said you need to lean on family and friend's.
Our Prayers and thoughts are with you.
Brian
Along with what the others have said, our thoughts and prayers are with you.
Scott and Carrie
Nathan,
Jan and I are so sorry to learn of your recent loss. There is nothing I can add that the folks before haven't already expressed. Our best wishes and prayers are with you.
We will keep you in our prayers as well. I know it is hard but things will get better with time.
Nathan,
Our prayers and thoughts are with you for sure. Just realize that God will guide you and surround you with his warmth and grace. Take each moment to him in prayer and give him the chance to lift you up.
Bill
Nathan,
Ann and I will certainly pray for you and Mary Kay every day. You are part of this wonderful family here on the forum so please let us know if any of us can help in any way. God bless my friend and be strong.
Pat and Ann
So very sorry to hear of you terrible loss. You and Mary Kay will be in my prayers. Take care.
Definitely NOT out of place.... I'm truly honored and humbled to be in a place where you reach out during a time of profound loss. My wife and I have been together for 37 years and I can't imagine her not by my side...47 years is impossible to replace here on earth. But I know personally that the comfort of faith, family and friends makes the possibility of carrying on again much more probable. Physically, due to you being "somewhere inside this computer", I can only offer a "digital" hug. However, because we can at least communicate, I can promise you that prayer of comfort has been made.
RC
Rev 21:4
I am so sorry Nathan....thoughts are with ya
C
Nathan,
You and Mary Kay will be in my heart and in my prayers...
~Nick
Nathan;
My deepest condolences go out to you. I will definitely say a special prayer for you and Mary Kay.
Nathan,
I definitely feel for you and will be praying for you. Hang in there and be diligent in communicating with God. You may even be mad at Him but keep on trying. Things may not make much sense now. It takes time to heal your painful wounds. Take each day and even each hour one at a time.
God bless you, Brad
Nathan,
I am so sorry for your loss. Our thoughts are with you.
Deb
Nathan,
I am so sorry to hear of your loss, all the others have said it so well, I know it's so hard to lose a loved one, prayers and thoughts are with you.
Tony
Nathan,
We are so sorry. We have you in our prayers.
Scott and June
You are in our prayers Nathan....
Tracy and Bob
You have our prayers and our deepest sympathy.
Greg & Family
Sorry to hear of your loss. My mom passed away this past June, she was 67. Very difficult thing to deal with. You are in my prayers. projump
Nathan--I am very sorry to hear about the loss of your wife. Please know my thoughts are with you.
Tom
Nathan,
I too am saddened to here of your loss. Our prayers are with you and Mary Kay as well. May the love of god and the friendship and love of those around you and here, help to comfort you in your time of need.
Nathan -
I am truely sorry to hear about your loss. 47 years is amazing and wonderful, especially in this day and age.
You will be in our prayers.
Scotty-G
Nathan with hesitation we all stand with you. My deepest condolences friend.
Hebrews 13:5 Amplified BibleQuote.....for He [God] Himself has said, I will not in any way fail you nor give you up nor leave you without support. [I will] not, [I will] not, [I will] not in any degree leave you helpless nor forsake nor let [you] down (relax My hold on you)! [Assuredly not!]
Nathan, I'm very sorry for your loss. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
Stephen
Nathan, you and Mary Kay are in our prayers.
We are so sorry for your loss.
Hearts feel what words can never say.
Carolyn
nathan,
i am very sorry for your loss, you and mary kay are in my prayers.
if there is anything i can do please let me know.
jerry
Nathan, just got back in town found your post. I don't have any idea of how you feel, but I can guess. I have no idea of how I would get over it if I lost my wife of 30 years. Man, I'm deeply saddened for you right now, but rest assured there are a number of us that have your back. Along with mine there are many intercessory prayers being sent to God for your's and Mary Kay's sake. May peace come quickly to your pain. Please, please remember the wonderful times that you were allowed to have together - nothing can take those away!
i'm very heart saddened to hear about the loss of your soulmate nathan, i know times are tough now and god is taking care of things now, just know that she is always with you. special prayers will be prayed for you and your family, i'm deeply sorry.........bobby
Nathan,
We are very sorry for your loss and will keep you in our prayers.
Heartfelt thanks go out to each and everyone of you for your prayers and encouraging words. I think I am doing a little better. I am on a roller coaster of life right now. I have alternating periods of being at peace with the world and then being unable to control my emotions. I feel like a BB in a box car at home. Not looking forward to the weekend. Its my birthday Friday and family wants us to get together to celebrate it. Not sure if I can do any celebrating yet. I am thinking of doing some therapudic smoking over the weekend. Thinking about trying to cross cut an eye round and making Jerky disc's. Have never done any jerky cut across the grain. I am concerned that it may fall apart. Have any of you ever done this?
This Forum and you great members are like an extended family to me and are being more help then you can ever imagine. Again, thank you brothers and sisters.
Nathan
Nathan, Glad to hear you are a little better. Little steps are a good thing. As far as emotions - as I told the 16 yo this weekend that just found out he was dying - that is what emotions are for - to help through times such as this. I know Mary Kay was the center of your life and you have a lot of good stories about the times you had together. I for one would like to hear about them. I you would like to share, feel free to PM me. I may be an ugly old coot, but you don't have to be young and cool to empathize and help out a fellow human. Now as far as the jerky - I have no idea - only made deer jerky once 30 or 40 years ago.
Mike
Nathan,
Peace be with you. Our prayers, too.
Quote from: sherlock on February 18, 2009, 06:16:28 AM
Heartfelt thanks go out to each and everyone of you for your prayers and encouraging words. I think I am doing a little better. I am on a roller coaster of life right now. I have alternating periods of being at peace with the world and then being unable to control my emotions. I feel like a BB in a box car at home. Not looking forward to the weekend. Its my birthday Friday and family wants us to get together to celebrate it. Not sure if I can do any celebrating yet. I am thinking of doing some therapudic smoking over the weekend. Thinking about trying to cross cut an eye round and making Jerky disc's. Have never done any jerky cut across the grain. I am concerned that it may fall apart. Have any of you ever done this?
This Forum and you great members are like an extended family to me and are being more help then you can ever imagine. Again, thank you brothers and sisters.
Nathan
Feel free to PM me Nathan. I'll give you my number if you get the urge to BS with someone and let some steam off. As far as the jerky goes you might PM Nepa. He's been doing jerky since......... Opps better not date him that far back. :o ;D He he he ...
Pat
Quote from: sherlock on February 18, 2009, 06:16:28 AM
Thinking about trying to cross cut an eye round and making Jerky disc's. Have never done any jerky cut across the grain. I am concerned that it may fall apart. Have any of you ever done this?
I have sliced eye of round every way possible and never had a problem with it falling apart, even sliced paper thin.
My prayers are with you in this time of heartache and mourning. God is there for you with a shoulder to cry on.
Friends, I am doing a little better, I guess.
I have been working so as to keep my mind too busy to think too much about missing Mary Kay. That works for the most part. It is so hard not having her call me during the day just to chat and exchange loving words, going home and not having her there to greet me, fix my dinner, comfort me through the night and to kiss me goodbye in the morning when I leave for work. I do tell her "I'm home" when I walk in the door at night, talk to her about every little thing I do, and tell her I love her as I back out of the driveway in the morning.
I have been trying my best to maintain our home to her standards. She did one hell of a job. Everybody says she would always tell them she needed to clean when in reality it was spotless all the time. I am sure she is looking down and thinking "I know you are trying so hard Nathan, however you missed a spot over there but don't worry, I love you even more for trying".
The Dr. gave me some medicine to help me through the long lonely nights but I am afraid of getting "hooked" on them so I only take them as a last resort.
It is amazing that friends like you all, many of you who have never met either Mary Kay or myself have expressed such an outpouring of love and prayers.You all will never know how much your friendship and your words of encouragement and condolences mean to me.
My next hurdle is to arrange for a monument for our grave site. That is going to be so hard. I lose control just thinking about it but I can't keep putting it off.
I apologise for not getting back in touch with those of you who have left messages on the phone and on email. I will try and get back in touch shortly.
Again, my friends, I thank you all for your expressions of brotherly love and for your concern. I love you all , my friends.
Nathan
Thanks for the update Nathan. Brought tears to my eyes and be assured I will keep praying for you. I know it is hard. Years ago I had a child to die. It was hard to do the monument thing, but I forced myself and a friend managed to get me involved in a couple of things to help get my mind off (temporarily) of the loss. Over time this really helped.
It is good to heare from you.
As I sit here i wish we all lived in the same neighborhood...I think it would be a pretty decent place. That being said many of us here will keep our hearts and arms open to you as long as you need us. I have learned a long time ago that it takes time and even at that time still doesn't take care of everything. I encourage you find a place with others...hopefully at church or even at some gathering of folks you know that meet on a regular basis. Please don't go this alone friend. Just Remember some little Dorf in hills of Arkansas and plenty of others here will still keep you in our prayers.
Nathan,
God never makes a mountain too big that we can't climb it. It may be the most difficult thing we ever have to do, but it is climbable. And just when you think you can't take another step, you realize that you're at the precipice of that mountain.
One day at a time is all you can ask.
Marc
Nathan,
Your most recent post is one of the most touching things I have read in a long long time. Your love and adoration of Mary Kay is obvious in every word.
I wish you the continued comfort of God's hand. Know that we will all continue to lift you up.
Larry
Nathan. Take your time with getting a monument to the gravesite. If you really need something there, you can do what Dad and I did for my sister's site. We took a Cedar 2X10 and cut it into 2 sections about 3 feet long and connected them edge to edge. On it, we attached a cement plaque that was given for the memorial service, a picture of her little kitties that she adored, and the brass plate from her office door that the law firm gave to us because my grandmother kept giving Brenda (my sister) crap about having a nameplate on her door.
It wasn't a labor intensive project, but it was very helpful with the pain. We do, however, only have it out there on Memorial Day weekend, along with some flowers. As for a permanent monument, that's going to have to wait for my aunt and uncle to decide which color they want (one wants one color, the other wants another) on theirs as it will serve 4 plots, including their and my final resting places.
Nathan,
My family sends thoughts and prayers your way.
sorry for your loss. my thoughts and prayers go out to you
nathan,
feel gods hand on your shoulder, he is there.
there may be times you do not feel like he is with you, but be it through loved ones or friends
he is there.
god bless
jerry
Nathan,
Good to hear things are moving along, albeit slowly. One day at a time. You're being thought of by someone out in the middle of nowhere South Dakota. Thank goodness it's not Arkansas.
Just kidding, MallardWhacker.
Ya know what smookinrookie...well put...I'm sure Nathan appeciated that post. (If I can so ridiculously be confindant to say so...)
As we all know Nathan is family...You have a big family my friend...across "ponds" and continents...sounds like it's moving along for you...we're here...
Tracy and Bob
God's blessings