In need of prayer

canadiansmoker · February 17, 2009, 07:24:51 AM

Nathan, I'm very sorry for your loss. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

Stephen

Caribou · February 17, 2009, 03:18:27 PM

Nathan, you and Mary Kay are in our prayers.
We are so sorry for your loss.
Hearts feel what words can never say.
Carolyn

Up In Smoke · February 17, 2009, 03:36:26 PM

nathan,
i am very sorry for your loss, you and mary kay are in my prayers.
if there is anything i can do please let me know.

jerry

Caneyscud · February 17, 2009, 03:54:16 PM

Nathan, just got back in town found your post. I don't have any idea of how you feel, but I can guess. I have no idea of how I would get over it if I lost my wife of 30 years. Man, I'm deeply saddened for you right now, but rest assured there are a number of us that have your back. Along with mine there are many intercessory prayers being sent to God for your's and Mary Kay's sake. May peace come quickly to your pain. Please, please remember the wonderful times that you were allowed to have together - nothing can take those away!

shredderman · February 17, 2009, 04:37:51 PM

i'm very heart saddened to hear about the loss of your soulmate nathan, i know times are tough now and god is taking care of things now, just know that she is always with you. special prayers will be prayed for you and your family, i'm deeply sorry.........bobby

FLBentRider · February 17, 2009, 04:46:26 PM

Nathan,
We are very sorry for your loss and will keep you in our prayers.

sherlock · February 18, 2009, 06:16:28 AM

Heartfelt thanks go out to each and everyone of you for your prayers and encouraging words. I think I am doing a little better. I am on a roller coaster of life right now. I have alternating periods of being at peace with the world and then being unable to control my emotions. I feel like a BB in a box car at home. Not looking forward to the weekend. Its my birthday Friday and family wants us to get together to celebrate it. Not sure if I can do any celebrating yet. I am thinking of doing some therapudic smoking over the weekend. Thinking about trying to cross cut an eye round and making Jerky disc's. Have never done any jerky cut across the grain. I am concerned that it may fall apart. Have any of you ever done this?

This Forum and you great members are like an extended family to me and are being more help then you can ever imagine. Again, thank you brothers and sisters.
Nathan

Caneyscud · February 18, 2009, 07:33:30 AM

Nathan, Glad to hear you are a little better. Little steps are a good thing. As far as emotions - as I told the 16 yo this weekend that just found out he was dying - that is what emotions are for - to help through times such as this. I know Mary Kay was the center of your life and you have a lot of good stories about the times you had together. I for one would like to hear about them. I you would like to share, feel free to PM me. I may be an ugly old coot, but you don't have to be young and cool to empathize and help out a fellow human. Now as far as the jerky - I have no idea - only made deer jerky once 30 or 40 years ago.

Mike

sodak · February 18, 2009, 11:49:44 AM

Nathan,

Peace be with you. Our prayers, too.

iceman · February 18, 2009, 01:45:03 PM

Quote from: sherlock on February 18, 2009, 06:16:28 AM
Heartfelt thanks go out to each and everyone of you for your prayers and encouraging words. I think I am doing a little better. I am on a roller coaster of life right now. I have alternating periods of being at peace with the world and then being unable to control my emotions. I feel like a BB in a box car at home. Not looking forward to the weekend. Its my birthday Friday and family wants us to get together to celebrate it. Not sure if I can do any celebrating yet. I am thinking of doing some therapudic smoking over the weekend. Thinking about trying to cross cut an eye round and making Jerky disc's. Have never done any jerky cut across the grain. I am concerned that it may fall apart. Have any of you ever done this?

This Forum and you great members are like an extended family to me and are being more help then you can ever imagine. Again, thank you brothers and sisters.
Nathan

Feel free to PM me Nathan. I'll give you my number if you get the urge to BS with someone and let some steam off. As far as the jerky goes you might PM Nepa. He's been doing jerky since......... Opps better not date him that far back. :o ;D He he he ...
Pat

Gizmo · February 18, 2009, 07:58:29 PM

Quote from: sherlock on February 18, 2009, 06:16:28 AM
Thinking about trying to cross cut an eye round and making Jerky disc's. Have never done any jerky cut across the grain. I am concerned that it may fall apart. Have any of you ever done this?

I have sliced eye of round every way possible and never had a problem with it falling apart, even sliced paper thin.

BigFella · February 24, 2009, 07:16:09 AM

My prayers are with you in this time of heartache and mourning. God is there for you with a shoulder to cry on.

sherlock · February 26, 2009, 05:26:50 AM

Friends, I am doing a little better, I guess.

I have been working so as to keep my mind too busy to think too much about missing Mary Kay. That works for the most part. It is so hard not having her call me during the day just to chat and exchange loving words, going home and not having her there to greet me, fix my dinner, comfort me through the night and to kiss me goodbye in the morning when I leave for work. I do tell her "I'm home" when I walk in the door at night, talk to her about every little thing I do, and tell her I love her as I back out of the driveway in the morning.

I have been trying my best to maintain our home to her standards. She did one hell of a job. Everybody says she would always tell them she needed to clean when in reality it was spotless all the time. I am sure she is looking down and thinking "I know you are trying so hard Nathan, however you missed a spot over there but don't worry, I love you even more for trying".

The Dr. gave me some medicine to help me through the long lonely nights but I am afraid of getting "hooked" on them so I only take them as a last resort.

It is amazing that friends like you all, many of you who have never met either Mary Kay or myself have expressed such an outpouring of love and prayers.You all will never know how much your friendship and your words of encouragement and condolences mean to me.

My next hurdle is to arrange for a monument for our grave site. That is going to be so hard. I lose control just thinking about it but I can't keep putting it off.

I apologise for not getting back in touch with those of you who have left messages on the phone and on email. I will try and get back in touch shortly.

Again, my friends, I thank you all for your expressions of brotherly love and for your concern. I love you all , my friends.
Nathan

Wildcat · February 26, 2009, 06:01:14 AM

Thanks for the update Nathan. Brought tears to my eyes and be assured I will keep praying for you. I know it is hard. Years ago I had a child to die. It was hard to do the monument thing, but I forced myself and a friend managed to get me involved in a couple of things to help get my mind off (temporarily) of the loss. Over time this really helped.

MallardWacker · February 26, 2009, 06:02:48 AM

It is good to heare from you.

As I sit here i wish we all lived in the same neighborhood...I think it would be a pretty decent place. That being said many of us here will keep our hearts and arms open to you as long as you need us. I have learned a long time ago that it takes time and even at that time still doesn't take care of everything. I encourage you find a place with others...hopefully at church or even at some gathering of folks you know that meet on a regular basis. Please don't go this alone friend. Just Remember some little Dorf in hills of Arkansas and plenty of others here will still keep you in our prayers.